maybe the reason why some of us stay up all night and sleep all day is because we were meant to live on the other side of the earth
I have not felt pretty in months.
I make it a point now to read so much
that I don’t have any extra time to look in the mirror.
I know that I’m not ugly, but there have been people
who put the idea in my head that I’m not worthy
of being loved. There is an idea in my head
that if I’m not attractive enough, nobody
will pay attention to me. At my new school,
so far this is true.
But here’s a list of future priorities.
You will find that “being pretty” is not even on the list.
I hope I don’t ever stop writing, even when everybody
stops reading my writing. I hope I never stop being honest.
I hope that I never stop being raw. I hope I never stop
being kind even when people forget to appreciate me.
I hope I never change colors to be more appealing.
I hope I never stop valuing my mind more than my looks.
I hope I never change my bittersweet taste just so I can
be more palatable. I hope I never change for anybody.
I hope that I’m a solid not a liquid. A solid defines itself.
A liquid waits to be defined. I hope that I never worry
about my weight again. I hope my words bear enough weight
to break all the molds in the world to remind people that
you don’t need to let anybody define your existence in words.
If pretty is a place, then you don’t need a map.
It’s the kind of place you find by instinct.
Your hands are compasses always pointing to self-acceptance.
Self esteem is not a well in the middle of a desert,
and teenage boys don’t have the coordinates tattooed on
their palms, but they might tell you they do, when they tell you
things like,”She’d be so much prettier if she grew out her hair.”
You walk around with your eyes closed asking
everyone how to get to “pretty”,
when you’re already there.
3:48 p.m. (This is a note to myself)
This is response to Lora’s poem.
Lauren Hooper (via thesearethesleeplessnights)
i guess i needed a good sob this morning. this is too relevant.(via song-beneath-the-song)
Now or never.(via alltheselittleghosts)
This is the most truth I have read in a long time. The relevance is too much to handle.(via shadymademedoit)